Tuesday, February 14, 2012

And we are back...

Day 44
Days left until thesis Deadline: 106
Thesis Word Count: 4.824

Anyone miss me?
What happened since we last spoke? I failed a class and scrambled to make it back up, which I think I have now done (I pray, I hope). But in the mean time I have managed to work on my thesis a bit, and with the help of my friends I am feeling a little more confident about it all. We shall see.
A book I was waiting for got its publication date pushed back even further (it was supposed to come out last October) and this makes me rather sad. I will get over it though.
Will post something more interesting tomorrow, I hope.

Friday, January 20, 2012

Day 19
Days left until thesis Deadline: 131
Thesis Word Count: 2,979




Ugh, fuck.
Damn
I knew this semester would not die anytime soon. Got an email from a prof asking me for 6 more assignments by Tuesday. But, I am leaving for Poland tomorrow morning. FML. I have also been asked to write a review for Park's Vengeance trilogy (Sympathy for Mr. Vengeance, Old Boy, Sympathy for Lady Vengeance) by the end of Feb. WHEN WILL SHIT END??.
Also, I am leaving for Poland tomorrow. Actually, tomorrow I will be in Riga for a good long time (Riga is an awesome city) and I will update blog at some point, hopefully with cool pictures from foreign lands. Updates may become sporadic, but when have they not been?
Last bit of news, I think I realized that it is not my laziness that prevents me from learning, it is my poor prioritizing. Take this blog for instance, it took me forever and a half to get photos where I want them to be, and I had to go into the fucking html to do it. I know there is an easier way, but I got shit to do, I cant be dicking this fucking blog all god damn day and night.
Also, Peter Berger is interesting. I looked into his life and works a bit and he sounds awesome. I want to read more.





Thursday, January 19, 2012


Day 18
Days left until thesis Deadline: 132
Thesis Word Count: 2,979

It snowed a shit ton in the past two days. I have it up to my ears. It is good studying weather, but I can say I have done shit. Yesterday was mounds of fun (it was the woman's birthday), and that combined with the wikipedia internet blackout made for a good day off. But I am falling behind , and leaving for Poland soon. Vacation in Poland, woo! But I actually dream of hourglasses when I sleep, hourglasses quickly depleting. So yea, the thesis is becoming a scary obsession.
The Poetics of Space was absolutely useless. So I can move on and focus and some other resources now.
I am also almost done reading a book by Roland Barthes, The Lover's Discourse. Every other page references Goethe's Werther, which I never bothered to read. Made me question what the point was.
Action shot of snow in the darkness.
And, back to work.

Tuesday, January 17, 2012



Day 16
Days left until thesis Deadline: 134
Thesis Word Count: 2,979

Today was a good and productive day, but it dawned on me that I need strategy. I think tomorrow I will leave the laptop at home and just bring books and a notebook with me to the library, read a whole bunch, take notes, and insert them into the thesis at a later point. A day reading, a day writing, a day reading, a day writing. Sounds like a solid plan.
I need to track down a copy of The SocioSemiotics of Place to complement my reading of The Social Construction of Reality. Really, I get to read some awesome books.
Which is actually a problem for me. I really do not know what the hell I am doing with this massive education I am getting, and at times I feel like I need to embrace it, while other times I feel like I need to let it go. Lately, I have been thinking about all the interesting things I could read and write about. I have what I think are some damn good ideas.
Also, I started some creative projects. One of my biggest problems with writing is that I can never sit down to do it. I am approaching this problem from to angles. I have started writing a piece of fiction where I simply write whenever I get inspired, and another that I am going to painstakingly plan and calculate. I want to see which one is better at the end of a given period. So far one has some 1000 words to it, and the other a whole lot of empty planning.
We shall see.
I took some action shots of the book I mentioned in yesterdays post.

UPDATE:Err.... forgot to mention. This
Was interesting, and a little disheartening.

Monday, January 16, 2012


Day 15
Jan 16th
Tartu Estonia.

Well, I wrote and submitted my last paper for this semester. So if all goes well, I will soon be done with semester. Of and I got a B on the back bad scary exam I took. Now to wait for the results to come in. Lets hope shit goes well.
Well, I know have no more excuses whatsoever, I really have to write this thesis. I havnt worked on it all, but I am going to start doing it. So, let's plan.
First, let me tackle to books, E. Relph's Place and Placelessness, which I have already read parts of and is really great. For instance "To be human is to live in a world that is filled with significant places: to be human is to have and know your place."
Second Gaston Bachelard's The Poetics of Space, which I suspect to be useless (my thesis topic does not deal with Space, but with Place, tow concepts which should not be confused).
And we shall see from there. I actually have a very long reading list, much of it will be boring.

Picture above has nothing to do with subject of this post.

Thesis Word Count: One-Four-Seven-Eight
Days left until thesis is due: 135

Saturday, January 14, 2012


Day 13,
Jan 14th,
Tartu Estonia

So, I have had too many unproductive days in a row, but sometimes you just need it. Back to serious as of now. I really don't see myself going out much more, or at least not for a while.
My good buddy opened a blog in homage to mine, and for some reason this stroked my competitiveness, so I need to up my blog game a little. Find it here
I live in Estonia, but that is not really what I mean by Locus Horribilis. I feel it refers more to the situation I live in. I am something of a tramp. Over the past years I have gotten up and moved somewhere just about every two years. There is a lot of uncertainty attached to this, but I like the life I live.
Soon I will move again, who knows where.
My life was for a long time dedicated to just about nothing but reading, which is pretty much how I ended up studying Semiotics in Estonia. Reading and writing remain my passions, though I do not often get as much practice at them as I should.
Today's picture is from a random bar that tried a little too hard to be posh.

Thesis Word Count (1.478)

Thursday, January 12, 2012


Day 11,
12th Jan
Tartu Estonia

I had a completly useless day today, and I am not happy about this. But tomorrow will be better, of this I am sure.
Here's a random picture of the Upsidedown Christmas tree my flatmate's put up.


Just one paper left to write.
Thesis Word Count (1.478)

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Los Angelos loves, love...


Update.
Hey! Soup came out well. Could have been better. I have decided I will make this again next month, and so on till I get it perfect, this time it was too spicy. This by the way, is chicken chocolate soup. And Yes I know it sounds disgusting, but it really isn't bad.
Beyond that, it is 5a.m. (I am listening to Los Angelos) and I should be in bed.


Day 10,
Jan 11th,
Tartu Estonia

Well, the exam went suprisingly well, so good for me.
Now, I have only one more paper to write, of which about half of it is already done and I have a fairly good idea about that to write. So the semester that wouldn't die is almost over, barring that something goes wrong and I have to redo some assignment. Let's hope well. TOnight I will make some soup with a friend, and beyond that I am going to do nothing at all. Tomorrow, I start to work again.

Papers left to write: 1 (Semester must Die!)
Pages completed of my thesis: Just broke pg 1 ( about 1.478 words ) Havnt touched this in a while...

Tuesday, January 10, 2012



Day 9,
Jan 10th,
Tartu Estonia

Oh Sweet Jesus Help...
This test has me wrecked, mostl cause I really dont know some of this shit. The break down is as follows. We had to prepare for 25 question, which dont really have much unity to them as far as a theme goes, of which we have to answer to two of them randomly.
My chance feel like 50%, but when we calculate in Bad luck, they are more like .05%
Well, I better get back to studying...

Papers left to write: 1 (Semester must Die!)
Exams: 1 (Fuckmethatstomorrow)
Pages completed of my thesis: Just broke pg 1 ( about 1.478 words ) Havnt touched this in a while...

Monday, January 9, 2012

Collage


Day 8,
Jan 9th,
Tartu Estonia

I awoke to a morning still dark, the sky a crimson violet that seemed unnatural, giving it color to the snow covered rooftops, the whole town crowned as a butcher's floor.
The second or third thoughts I had upon waking. It was affected much by the reading I had been doing the night before.

I am increasingly less initmedated by my coming exam. I am not sure why. I have barely studied for it, or rather I am about half way there, and yet I cant seem to care.

So I finished reading Merezkhovsky's The Romance of Leonardo Da Vinci as well. I wrote this review for it.
"I remember so very often walking through the Vatican museums and stopping at the lonely little picture Leonardo Da Vinci made of St Jerome. It was always strange to stop and look at it. It is in the whole of the museum the only work that is incomplete to such a degree. One would wonder why it is there. Surely, this person who we all know as a renaissance master most have better works that we could display.
Or maybe not. I guess I never bothered to look into the life Of Da Vinci, but if we Take Merezkovsky word on it, he was not a prolific person at all. His mastery does show in the little ChiaroScuro work I mentioned, but the book brought me to an understanding that being a master of something might not mean the prolific output showed by various other Italian artists of history.
The book illustrates rather well not only the person in question, but the rather interesting and turbulent times he lived in.
A book that can contextualize a painting is certainly rather good."

It seemed like a review written to up for the numbers of reviews one writes. I will strive to do a better job next time. This is a promise. But in the mean time I finished reading Anais Nin's House of Incest. For some reason I read it in Italian, before realizing that the original language it was written in was English. Damn. I have had for many years the dual language edition, which I picked up used for next to nothing.

Today's Photo refers to the Picture mentioned in the review of The Romance of Leonardo Da Vinci

"Chiacchiere, chiacchiericci, frasi lasciate a mezzo, astrazioni, campanelli cinesi suonati con bastonicini ricoperti di ovatta, falsi fiori d'arancio dipinti su porcellana. I soffocati, segreti chiacchiericci di donne dal tenero corpo. Gli uomini che ha abbracciato, a le donne, si confondono nella risonanza della mia memoria. Suono dentro suono, scena dentro scena, donna dentro donna - come un acido che riveli una scrittura invisibile. Una donna dentro l'altra, alla fine, in una processione che si spinge lontano, che frantuma la mia mente in quarti di tono che nessun direttore d'orchestra potrà mai più ricomporre."
Anais Nin
La Casa Dell'Incesto

Papers left to write: 1 (What!)
Exams: 1 (This Wednesday)
Pages completed of my thesis: Just broke pg 1 ( about 1.478 words )

Sunday, January 8, 2012


Day 7,
Jan 8th,
Tartu Estonia

This Blog is mostly about distraction. When Life gives you something difficult, you do need to focus a lot of energy on it, but you have to keep yourself sane at the same time. I try to multitask as much as I can. This can be something as simple as watching a TV show while you eat, or maintaining a stupid blog while you write your thesis. Today I wrote the second to last of my papers. I also finished that disgusting soup I made. It fed me a total of 7 times by my count. Now I have just the one exam that is terrifying me and another paper due the 16th that is actually half written already. I should probably make more soup soon. Next time, lentils.
Yea, I am kind there with the semester. So long as I don't fuck up the exam.
The other night I finished eating my soup while watching a movie. Sad things is, I couldn't tell you what movie I was watching. I had not much left of the movie, so I started to get fidgety and looked for something to do with my hands while watching it. I found some notes scribbled by my flatmate who, like any good Italian, writes in a hand that is completely illegible. I also remembered that I had some forks that were destroyed by a restaurant terrorist I know in Vicenza. When he goes to restaurant, he tends to destroy things, silverware included. I don't know why, but I kept the forks, always telling myself I would do something with them.
No time like the present.
So I got to work. combining the two useless objects. Results above.
On a completely different note, you can tell how close you are to exam times by counting the frequency of women with unkempt hair...

Papers left to write: 1 (What!)
Exams: 1
Might as well Remove the Homework Line.
Pages completed of my thesis: Just broke pg 1 ( about 1.478 words )

Saturday, January 7, 2012


Day 6,

Jan 7th,

Tartu Estonia

I did manage, thank God, to go out last night, but it was on all accounts it was rather boring. It scored my a bit of a hangover, which combined with a bit of natural lazyness meant that today I decided to do nothing but read and work on some personal things. Most of which are on no interest. Having finished reading Huxley's Island, I wrote my brother an email about it.

"Hey M-

I wanted to thank you again for the gift. Over the past few years both Mom and Dad have hesitated about giving me books as gifts, despite the fact that they are always welcome and appreciated as far as gifts go. I guess I reached a threshold where, in mom and dad's eyes, I have become too well read for them too shock me with books. I think I am far from that point, and I also think that to be well read is not something you achieve, but something you painstakingly maintain. That being said, I really do appreciate both this book, and the one that you got before me, and I appreciate that you gave them to me without to many screams of 'Haven't you read everything yet?'

Complaints aside, I am writing to tell you that today, after a long night of drinking last night, I finished reading Huxley's Island. I found the book to be rather enjoyable, and it makes me wonder whether or not I should reread Brave New World. I read it when I lived in Boston and I am entirely unsure about whether I really had the maturity to enjoy it at that age. It certainly could use a reread. It is a strange sentiment to have, considering memory (and I have long ago learned not to always trust memory) recount my having enjoyed Brave New World.

Huxley was rather ambitious with this novel, and perhaps to much so. I think you would agree that it is not so much a novel as a philosophical treatise about, at the most basic level, political philosophy. I am going to ramble off a little about things I have pretty much just finished learning for an Ideologies class, so please forgive me. By Political I mean not Politics, which is the every day happenings of life and politicians, but about a theory of conflict. It is, oddly enough, the word Politics whose etymological meaning is something to the affect of 'How to get along in the city', but in academics these things tend to get inversed. So what I was saying was that Huxley has written a theory of a society that gets along. It is in a respect a Utopian novel, despite the fact that we see the bulldozers at the tail end of it, ready to knock down paradise. I see how this stand along side BNW, but if this was supposed to be a model of how a utopian society should be, i think it falls short. Mostly this is because I do not see the possibility of a Utopian society, ever. Huxley seems to lament not progress, but the massive amount of waste and all other non necessities that accompany the society we currently live in. And while I agree on many respects about how he sees this society and its future (better argumented in BNW) I dont really see how this society would function at a global scale.

People nowadays argue heavily against globalization, in that it has a very unfair distribution of resources (and in turn, wealth). What Huxley is arguing here is for is globalization's opposite, localization. The problem with this that it requires that each community have enough resources to maintain itself. And while we may all live by our means, we may desire more. Each community can recognize how much food it can produce, but does every community have enough silicone to maintain something like a personal world wide web. Likely not.

But the bigger problem is in human nature. We are all possessive in our nature, and that possesiveness is rather deep seeded. And, despite the way this society is structured, at some point someone will simply want something that they cannot have. We saw a bit of this in the case of the young girl who feel in love with the Raja who wanted nothing to do with her, but I think I disagreed with the extent of her getting over it. People do not easily get over things, and blessed are those who do. I sometimes still think about a relationship that failed five damn years ago. If I had another chance, what would I do of it? Probably nothing, but I am (and here you will disagree with me) rather tame in my temperament. What would a worse person do? A society presented as this one is does not take into account the massive amounts of differences in taste that naturally occur within individuals. We have people like Hipsters, who will only like things based on its obscurities. And then again, we have large people who like whatever is presented to them in terms of music and arts. And I think this represents a lot about how people function in society. Some will want to be a part of it simply because everyone else is, and others will want to be apart from it simply because everyone else is a part of it.

I could go on, but my energy for one writing is just about spent.

How have you been since returning to S-? We really didnt have a chance to chat much, and I recognize that on this trip it was largely my fault, but what can I say, I needed out of V-.

Hope all is well, drop me a line when you can.

And thank you again.

--

--

-M."

Papers left to write: 2

Exams: 1

Homework assignments left to turn in: 0 (I think)

Pages completed of my thesis: Just broke pg 1 ( about 1.478 words )

Friday, January 6, 2012




















Day 5,

Jan 6th,

Tartu Estonia

I awoke this morning to find a few little gift from the Befana. My flatmates decided to make a simple dinner last night, and this somehow led to the systematic destruction of the kitchen. I sometimes admire their dedication to excess. Dinner for them can involve more ingredients then I bother to use in a week. The disgusting soup I posted about? I am still eating it. But not these two.

They made something that was Asian in denomination, so the house smelled like fermented fish heads when I woke up. Every cutting board was used and in the need of a cleaning. To wash this meal down, instead of buying a bottle of wine, they decided to make Bloody Mary. From scratch. So they boiled tomatoes, beets, and Garlic. That too, at some point should be cleaned. Well, I was looking for an excuse to eat out.

To boot, there was also some dude on the couch.

I swear to God, tonight I will go out.

Papers left to write: 2

Exams: 1

Homework assignments left to turn in: 0 (I think)

Pages completed of my thesis: Just broke pg 1 ( about 1.478 words )

Thursday, January 5, 2012


Day 4,

Jan 5th,

Tartu Estonia

I got an email from a professor telling me not to worry about the homework assignments I had missed, so that is one less worry off my back. His exam will be rather difficult, if for no other reason than the fact that I have, never even once, understood a god damned word this guy has said. During class, he attempted to discuss 'the impossibility of scientific truths', while I sat there wondering why he was going on about 'the impossibility of scientific Jews'. I gave up trying to pay attention altogether as of that incident. I am only marginally worried, but that is Thursdays problem.

When I woke up this morning the streets were pretty much clear of snow and ice. And then this happened. I should mention that I have not left my house to go further than the 25 meters that is the distance from my house to the library. I am hoping to some point soon.

Papers left to write: 2

Exams: 1

Homework assignments left to turn in: 0 (I think)

Pages completed of my thesis: Just broke pg 1 ( about 1.176 words )

Wednesday, January 4, 2012


Day 3,

Jan 4th,

Tartu Estonia

Cooked food that will last me a few days (I hope), did two loads of laundry, finished reading a novel, cleaned my room. Organized my life a little and somehow made it less orderly. Havnt left the house. I really should.

The disaster pictured to the left is the food I made. It is about 2 kgs of vegetables and beans, all boiled in red wine and many many spices.

Papers left to write: 2

Exams: 1

Homework assignments left to turn in: 4 (I think)

Pages completed of my thesis: Just broke pg 1 ( about 1.176 words )

Tuesday, January 3, 2012


Day 2,

Jan 3rd,

Tartu Estonia

I spent most of today writing about Giovanni Battista Piranesi (by a very painful stretch of logic, Piranesi is responsible for the title of this blog), which was actually rather wonderful, thought it took much longer than I was hoping. It was painful in this respect; I have been closed in this library for about 6 hours now, and the landscape here is rather drab. I was looking for something interesting to take a picture of. So I finished writing my paper and then looked for something interesting to photograph. The results are above. It isn't much, but what can you expect from a library. Sad things is, I don't see myself going anywhere for the next few days.

As of this writing;

Papers left to write: 2

Exams: 1

Homework assignments left to turn in: 4 (I think)

Pages completed of my thesis: Just broke pg 2 (about 1.176 words)

Monday, January 2, 2012

Introduction to a Hobby


Day 1,

Jan 2nd,

Tartu Estonia

I am sitting at the left most end desk in a library that is rather packed with people. I have open next to me Don Delillo's White Noise to take some notes for what I hope will be a useful/interesting paragraph of my thesis...

These does not seem to be much of an escape.

It's 4:40 pm, and outside has already come to a full nocturnal darkness, broken only by light reflected off snow. 24 hours ago I was complaining about the fact that it was chilly in Rome, if only I knew then where I would be now...

I live in Tartu, Estonia, a small and comfortable little university town in the Baltics. I am studying for my Master's in Semiotics, and have at this point just about completed my coursework, leaving just my thesis or so to work on over the next 5 months. If I am going to stay sane, I am going to need a hobby. So why not blog it up? Talking to a friend over the holidays, I came with the idea of taking a picture a day. So here I go.

Had I waited a few seconds to take the above picture, it would have been much different, as a girl with hair dyed to that color between metalic red and electric pink has sat in front of me. The 6 cm between her roots and where the color begins is a classic light brown., but the whole thing looks awful. Add to this earings that feature an Andy Warhol of John Lennon and it becomes hard not to look, though I cant tell if it is for reasons good or bad. Meh.

As of this writing;

Papers left to write: 3

Exams: 1

Homework assignments left to turn in: 4 (I think)

Pages completed of my thesis: Just broke pg 1 (about 635 words)